When I made the decision to purchase an expensive camera, it became my way of hiding behind the scenes and not participating in the "moment". While hiding, I tried diligently to capture the happiness and magic of what was going on around me, because I knew it existed. I just wasn't ready to be a part of it (yet) because I was filled with fear and depression on the inside.
Capturing these events were important to me because I knew there would eventually come a time when I was healed enough and would need to look back and remember the happiness I had missed out on.
The time is finally here, I can now scroll through the past five years worth of photographs with a smile on my face. I honestly can't remember the little things that occurred in the moment like scents or specific feelings, but thankfully I have the memory captured.
Because of that, the afterwards, the years afterwards, these memories are finally making their way to my heart.
What I have learned is that it is possible to dissociate from the moment but still be blessed by that same moment years later. This is a skill I never ever thought I'd have to learn in my lifetime nor did I know it was possible.
For all of you out there wearing shoes like mine please write and take photos and try to preserve your moments. And when you are ready, embrace them with open arms and I promise you'll feel a power within you that you never knew existed. Good luck, I'm rooting for you. You will persevere.
Capturing these events were important to me because I knew there would eventually come a time when I was healed enough and would need to look back and remember the happiness I had missed out on.
The time is finally here, I can now scroll through the past five years worth of photographs with a smile on my face. I honestly can't remember the little things that occurred in the moment like scents or specific feelings, but thankfully I have the memory captured.
Because of that, the afterwards, the years afterwards, these memories are finally making their way to my heart.
What I have learned is that it is possible to dissociate from the moment but still be blessed by that same moment years later. This is a skill I never ever thought I'd have to learn in my lifetime nor did I know it was possible.
For all of you out there wearing shoes like mine please write and take photos and try to preserve your moments. And when you are ready, embrace them with open arms and I promise you'll feel a power within you that you never knew existed. Good luck, I'm rooting for you. You will persevere.
