If i only had a heart....
I am wondering, are we in the clear? Will she be able to play basketball? Will they find something more that didn’t show up on original tests? What if everything looks good on the outside but is malfunctioning on the inside? Is the murmur gone, or was it ever there? Will we be fortunate to have yearly follow up appointments or will Maddox have to be seen every three to six months? My mind is racing while reviewing all the possibilities.
So many questions, so many questions about the most vital organ in your body. The organ that pumps your blood, fuels your brain, and recharges your muscles. This powerful organ not only runs your entire physical being, it is also in charge of your emotional heartbreak and happiness.
I have two wishes going into tomorrow. I hope the doctor gives Maddox the lifetime guarantee for the her physical heart and I hope mommy can give her the lifetime guarantee and protect her emotional heart.
It is 10 hours before Maddox’s appointment. My mind is spinning. I decided to get on her web sight to make a few updates only to find that 30% of the sight has crashed. Scott is looking at me and telling me not to stay up too late because we are driving to Nebraska tomorrow after the cardiologist appointment and we need our rest.
When I am nervous I obsess on something. I decided to obsess on rebuilding my web sight. Yep, four hours later and 3:00 AM, here I am. The sight is rebuilt and will be done uploading by 5:00 AM. So much for going to bed early.
I am not going to be a good passenger tomorrow.....
THE NEXT MORNING
We get up and load the car for our 16 hour trip. Yes, Scott, myself, Maddox, Copper, and Daisy are all going. Any bets on when Scott’s patience runs out? Michigan, Indiana, Illinois, Iowa, Nebraska?
We went to town for Maddox appointment and expected to be waiting forever. We got there early and they were so far ahead of schedule that we were walking out darn near the time of our scheduled appointment!
Here are the details. First she was placed on the scale. The nurses all laughed at her as she hung out on the scale smiling and swinging her legs off the end as if she had done this a million times. She probably has! Maddox had to squeal a ‘hello’ to every single staff member, the housekeeper, the nurses, the patients, the and the doctor. She is already won over the hospital, it is really cute! I couldn’t help but think about how things would be when I bring her here when she is 2 years old, 6 years old, and even 10 years old. She’ll think she owns the place!
They did the EKG and Maddox’s only job was remain quiet and still for 10 seconds. Seriously....?IMPOSSIBLE!!! Between talking, grabbing the cords, and playing on a gigantic sized piece of crinkle paper, Maddox was living it up.
After the EKG, the doctor came in and gave us an update on the three holes in her heart. The Ventral Septal Defect should be closed. The Patent Ductus Arteriosus is nothing to worry about. The only hole left in question is the Atrial Septal Defect in which we will follow up with an Echocardiogram in March. Chances are slim that the doctors will find anything alarming.
Eyes are good, heart is good....Give it to me.
We are ready. What’s next?
We are westward bound!
And my heart is racing as fast as it can, knowing in a few hours I will be holding our littlest Angel.
THURSDAY, JULY 15, 2010 - 10:09 PM
That is wonderful news Jamie! Have a great time with your family!
THURSDAY, JULY 15, 2010 - 10:51 PM
Great news. cory also has heart checkups and has also won over the hospital. Even now at 15 they remember him. cuz as a baby he was the same way talking and giggeling to everyone he came in contact with and he is no different today. But now everyone he meets gets a hand shake if they are a man, a hug (usuallly) for the women and a fist bump for all the kids/teens. And a "hey, I'm Cory West"
Glad to hear all news was good. Hopefully as time goes on you will visit only as frequently as we do, U of M is on our list every 3 to 4 years for check ups!
TUESDAY, AUGUST 3, 2010 - 09:16 AM